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Turkey Day.....

I am thankful for so many things i dont know where to begin, first off I am thankful for YOU! I am thankful for friends and family. I am grateful for God and love. I am grateful for the ability to breathe and swallon, you know, I am THANKFUL!!!

Now lets get to the part where I praise myself...

This year is a first for a few things,

1. Not spending the afternoon with my immediate family.
2. Making my FIRST thanksgiving meal, all by myself.
3. Inviting only friends.

I woke up at 9:30am and started cooking, even the turkey and you bet it was amazingly moist. YES, I did a rockstar job!!! I also made stuffing with mushroom, onion, pork sausage and apple. then i made the basics including salad, sweet potato casserole, mashed potato and gravy, I really enjoy being domestic, it feels great, THANK GOD for my ability to cook.

HAPPY THANKSGIVING GUYS!!! XOXO

Baklava

So, appearantly when you get laid off you get the uncontrollable urge to bake. hehe well thats what i have heard from Katie's blog atleast. I just really love to bake and especially try new things. I have been wanting to make homemade baklava, and so i did! and it was really delightful. Next time I will change a few things, I will make extra syrup to pour on top so the pastry is extra moist and I will grind my walnuts even smaller so the layers stay together better! but for a first try, i have to say im very proud of my self.

If any of you want to try making it give yourself plenty of time!

If you would like the recipe I used, just email me! I'd love to hear from you :)

Jason Mmmmraz

Today is Wednesday Novemember 19th

Today is two days after Monday, Monday was the day I was officially laid off from my job at Life Time Fitness. along with alot of other people. Including some of my closest friends. Today is also just 2 days before the friday I got laid off in 2006. Maybe thats why I feel so calm about this. I have gone through it before and i was ok.

God does not put us through anything he will not help get us out of.

I just want everyone that is still with LTF and those who are no longer to know that I love you guys and I will be praying for you all.

Amazing Concert

Just left the Coldplay concert, which tops just about every other concert(which happens to be quit a few) I have ever been to. Not only did they sing amazingly but they set up a mini stage in the middle of the lower level crowd and that just happened to be about 10 from my seat. SWWWWWEEEEEET!!! I am so pumped, I nearly losted my voice from all the screaming! but it was worth it.
I sure hope Jason Mraz can top that this thursday. We will find out...

Check out a music video at the link below

Lost and Confused

Some days I feel so anxious, like something is going to go wrong, I worry about things that haven't even happened, about things years from now. I pray that I can just let these feelings go and truly live in the moment. The reality is that normally everything is just fine and all my worrying was a waste, but even knowing that does not stop the thoughts running through my head.

Got any idea's for me?

Scrapbooking Weekend

So this was my first weekend scrapping getaway, and seriously had a blast, I have to admit I was a little nervous at first because I didnt know everyone and I assumed I was not as creative as the other ladies, but it really turned out to be awesome. Friday night we started scrapbooking at about 6:30pm and finished out around 1:00pm and then saturday we scrapbooked from 9:00 to 12:30am with the exception to the trip to Archivers and Champs with the girls (Ashley, Katie, Sarah and Sandy). When we got back Katie made these Lava cakes and they were so amazing and rich. Sunday was a great end to the exhausting weekend. I even scrapped about my baby blanket which was a little hard to give up but it was time. all said and done i completed 25 pages which is awesome and now i can not stop showing off my scrapbooks. Thank you to everyone for inviting me and making me feel so welcome!!

And look at all the stuff...

***HaLlOwEen***

Help me find peace

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Philippian 4:6-7

Apple Orchard

Apple Orchard

I LOVE THE SMELL OF FALL

Last sunday was family day again and this week we did the trip to the Apple Orchard with the church.It was absolutely beautiful outside, about 74 degrees and sunny with a slight breezy, it was a blast, we did the hayride, probably the best one I have ever been on. I also go to hold a baby goat, he was so adorable, then we went into the apple orchard, entire family in tow and picked apples. I think this is the first year we have all gone together, finally I have a real family picture. and the Apples were delicious, i think i ate 3 different apples while we were picking them. As tradition i then went home with 3 bags of apples and baked baked baked, this year I made great grandma Lilians famous Chunky Cinnamon Applesauce, Apple cidar, Apple Cinnamon muffins, bread, and Apple Crisp. YUM YUM YUM, and im not even appled out yet.

Fun Times

I recently went on a trip to Chicago, and i had a blast, Levan and I drove down and rented a hotel room next to the Allstate Arena becuase we decided to go to the Enrique Iglesias Concert, which was awesome, we were only six rows away from the Hottie himself.

It was a great trip, I even introduced levan to his first ever Flea Market on sunday morning, he wasnt so into it but did find a few soccer jersey's and a watch for me :).

Who decides?

I have recently learned that no decision is an easy decision and not all decision will make everyone happy. This kind of sucks, because all though I feel something is right for ME, I have 5 people telling me that its for sure not. Who knows what to do anymore or for that matter what to think.

Why is it that everyone gets to live and learn from their mistakes but when It comes to me I am expected to live and learn from their mistakes instead of making my own?


Life is so difficult. How do you just let go of someone you have loved for so long? does anyone have this answer? maybe we are not right for each other, maybe he really messed up, but regardless how does the love just stop? I don't think it does. So with that said what do you do about it? do you just pretend you don't love, because this is what everyone else wants?

If you have answers to any of these questions please let me know, because apparently i need serious help!



The steps I am taking:


I am just living 1 day at a time. I have decided to let myself feel happy in the moment and to not look any further than that. So far it seems to be working for me.


I am not closing the door to new opportunities but I have not yet closed the door to the love I have in my heart.



There are a couple things i know for sure, I know that i am ready to grow up and think about marriage and children, I am ready to be with ONE man for the rest of my life, and I am not willing to compromise on these things any longer. Some say i am too young but growing up all i dreamed of being was a happy loving wife and mother, and that's what my heart wants. I always refuse to be a mans second best, I will be with someone who wants to be with me and will make me #1 in his life, someone who remembers special occasion's and someone who lets me cry on there shoulder. i will also no longer compromise my religion, My future husband will be a practicing Christian.


So i suppose that, i really have no concrete answers for my future, i just know what i want and what i will have. and as for today i will live one moment at a time. becuase i spent my entire life planning my future and look it all disappeared so there really is no use is worrying about what i can not see or control.

Times UP!

They say everything happen's in threes and at this point im praying this is true and it is now my turn for a break.

1) My grandfather died
2) I broke up with my boyfriend of 4 years
3) Having a serious issue with my boss at work

Am i done yet?

Going through all this has made me realize that obviously god wants me to be a stronger person. So as I slowly heal I just continue to pray... that was his plan all along i suppose :)

A friend(Thank you Katie :)) of mine sent me this verse and i want to share it:

Psalm 13

1 How long, O lord? Will you forget me forever?
How long will you hife your face from me?

2 How long must I wrestle with my thoughts and every day have sorrow in my heart?
How long will my enemy triumph over me?

3 Look on me and answer, O lord my God.
Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death;

4 My enemy will say, "I have overcome him,"
and my foes will rejoice when I fall.

5 But I trust in you unfailing love;
My heart rejoices in your salvation.

6 I will sing to the LORD,
for he has been good to me.

I have this hanging at my desk and i like to read it over and over when i start to feel discouraged.

As the world turns :)

I'm alive and happy, 2 days no tears, and actually i feel amazing. it really even surprises me.

i think i made myself believe that i was more reliant on him than i really was, i even feel relieved to be free and know that i am on a path that was chosen for me and all i have to do is hold the lords hand and he will continue to guide me.

Tonight will be a blast, Ana turned 26 woho! ladies night, this always means lots of dancing and laughs and i can't wait, it will be awesome to do these things without worrying about someone else the entire time.

Now, those of you that know me well know that i do not drink or party a lot and i don't even really going downtown, but for an occasion like this i will live it up to the fullest. and then i will probably need a low key night for Saturday (hehe).

One other thing, i never realized what a cool feeling it is to live in one place every night, i don't have to live out of my gym bag anymore. what a wonderful feeling :)

Love you guys, thanks for checking in on me!

The Truth comes out

Ok, so as most of you should know, this last week has pretty much been from hell. I have recently found myself single, i know its for the best but never the less this does not make it any easier, last week i found out that i was cheated on. I know can you believe it? this was never supposed to happen to me, but it did and i guess its like they say, the hardest things are sometimes the best things and they only make you stronger.

I honestly feel that the hardest thing about this is that i have to let go of the person that has been my best friend for 4 years. It nearly seems impossible to go to sleep and wake up with out him in my life.

This experience has shown me how loved i really am, i have people praying for me from all over the place and i have friends that are their for me more then i ever thought they would want to be.

On this path to a new life i have realized some wonderful things, and i think i will only continue to learn about myself and the people around me.

I do know that i am not going to waste anytime, i am a great person, i am caring and compassionate. and i deserve to be loved and respected the same way that i love and respect the people in my life.

Now that i have openly spilled my guts, i just want to say that today is a new day and a better day.

God only gives me what i can handle and this too will pass.

I love all you guys for your prays and support,

thank you again for being my friend.

Inspired by Ashley

Not exactly sure why i feel that i need to blog but thanks to Ashley i am. Maybe i want to be just like her. not sure but either way she is pretty cool and i love her much.

So today is a new day a sunny day and its Wednesday, i move this weekend so i should be doing lots of packing but I'm not, instead I'm at the place i spend most of my time, called WORK.

I will post more photos and such as i begin to understand this blogging thing more.